Welp … 9 weeks and down 18.5 pounds. Honestly, I expected it to be more but I’m ok with it … didn’t put it on over night, not gonna lose it overnight! Def looking forward to the next few weigh-ins though, the lower it reads the more excited I become. Been thinking about little ‘rewards’. I’d like to do some tanning again, I know it’s kinda bad, but what isn’t it. Hm. At 150 maybe I’ll start doing it just enough to get some color, then at 140 a new hair-do! I’ve been keeping it trimmed, but aside from that haven’t been doing a damn thing with it. Anyway, I put the updated pictures here.

Had my dog properly groomed the other day, little diva she can be …

I love mai dawggie. xoxox

I went to see a therapist yesterday (I’m assuming that’s what she’s is), nice woman, nose and tongue pierced like myself, and her hair was similar AND she looked to be about the same age. I was trying so damn hard to be comfortable and though I avoided eye contact a lot, as I normally do – I ended up laying everything on the table and told her my deepest and darkest secrets, things I’ve never told another living soul in my entire life. A few ‘milestone’ things/incidents I was really afraid to share with her, but felt the need to tell her as much as I could. She had 7/8 pages of notes by the time the 90 minutes was over. That was yesterday. I’m back again Monday to finish with some evaluations, etc. I’m strangely looking forward to all this and pray that it’ll be the start to some emotional healing.

Getting a really bad taste in my mouth at ranom lately, like metal or tin or whatever, anyone else ever experience that? It isn’t my teeth no, just visited the dentist not long ago … and regardless of what I do I can’t get rid of it, it’s something I’ve never experienced before.

I still haven’t given up the cigs, and my gawd I feel like I stink sometimes, though I’m only smoking 6-7 a day. The pot though, yeah, I’ll save that for another day. Destructive one minute, then positive the next I know. I’m weird I think.

Time to do some catching up. ♥