Tag Archive: Citalopram

I wasn’t gonna do this …

I wrote, deleted,wrote deleted, closed the page …

I wish I knew what I wanted.

In life, in men, from myself. I’m so up and down sometimes. Lost.  Frustrated. Discouraged. And very lonely in so many ways.

I wish I could understand why I’ve become the way I have,  so I could just stop it or at least better control it. These anti-depressant are bullshit and do nothing but give me headaches, make me feel nauseous half the time and make it impossible to rub one off.

1:22 am Christmas morning and I’m sitting in front of the computer, smoking a bowl, eating pistachios and popcorn and downing disgusting amounts of Pepsi. Yep, f a i l. I was giving myself the excuse that “it’s Christmas” so it was acceptable. Christmas, yeah, woopdee fuck.

I do look forward to my kids in the morning, it’s the only joy in Christmas for me – my boys, but aside from that, all it does is remind of the harsh reality of my future and where I’m going, or should I say not going …

Tomorrow’s a new day and I’m gonna get right back on the wagon, forget this didn’t happen and promise to not let it happen again.

Happy Christmas all xxx

Celexa (Citalopram) and the big O

Sorry it this is a little too direct, but … the damn medications these doctors prescribe for depression and things alike, do nothing but gimmie damn headaches and make it near impossible to rub one off. The problem isn’t gtetting there, it’s finishing – as it just seems to hang. And call me crazy, but how does it even make sense to treat an illness with a medication that causes what it’s supposed to be treating?! (Mood swings, thoughts of hopelessness, suicide, weight gain/loss, etc) Just a thought.